a million years from here
Hi. I'm Emily. And my life? It's pretty crazy!
About
Emily. 30+. She/Her.
Born November 8.
Chicago, IL, USA
Scorpio, Ram, INFP
RP Info
I have the innate ability to run between 0 and 3 RP blogs at a time, but click "RP BIO" to see who's active, who I've written in the past, etc.
ETC
Other sites you can find me on!
BYF
a kind of "Why Am I Like This?" note
About Emily
Hi! I'm Emily and I'm trying my fucking best to survive out here. I just finished grad school and earned my MLIS--aka, I have a Master's degree in Library and Information Science. I work part time at a library, and when I'm not at work, I either sleep, watch youtube, or play video games.Of course, I have other hobbies. I love writing. I've spent several years now RPing on tumblr, but I'll get more into that stuff on a different page.I have ADHD, I've recently learned that I'm autistic, and I can hold so much anxiety and depression in this miserable flesh sack I call a body. I mention all this because sometimes I misunderstand things, or I end up in a buffering state while trying to make sense of something. Reaching out to talk to friends is also hard but I'm trying my best to be better at that.I'm gay/lesbian/wlw, and my girlfriend lives a state away from me. I love her very much and we've been working on seeing each other in person more often. But between the distance (4 hour drive), both our jobs, and just the chaos of life, we're mostly stuck texting and calling when we can. Still, I'm so lucky to have them in my life, and I'd move heaven and earth to see her every day.
Adventures in RP
I currently have two active RP blogs: Luz of The Owl House, and Lucia of Suitor Armor. Their blogs are part of the tumblr MFRP Isola Radiale. While it's not a requirement for members of IR to be group exclusive, my blogs do not interact with Indie RP blogs in any manner.
In the past, I've had runs as:
Marceline (Adventure Time)
Brooke Page (Ever After High)
Ryuko Matoi (Kill la Kill)
Haruka Nanami (Uta no Prince Sama) [this one was indie and my first Real RP blog]
Where Am I, etc
Wanna follow me in other places? Especially since twitter is currently... gestures vaguely
You can find me here!
(I also have Discord! If we know each other, feel free to ask for it C:)
I suppose this is just... me trying to be upfront about a couple of things that people might want to know about me?
First of all, I'm Autistic and I have ADHD. I mentioned that on my about page, but I'm noticing more and more the ways that these two things are affecting my interactions with others. Sometimes I'm incredibly clueless about the feelings of others, both in person and especially in text. Sometimes I make jokes that, in the moment, seem funny to me, only to realize much much later that I'd actually said something wrong, or upsetting. Sometimes I don't even realize this until someone else tells me I did it. I'm not using my disabilities as an excuse, so please don't take it that way. However, I would so very much appreciate some understanding when I do something that might seem mean, or rude, or upsetting. The last thing I want to do is to hurt people I care about, especially with my words that I'd intended to be a joke. If I've said something that hurt you, please tell me, and don't assume I know what's happened, since the chances are that I actually have no idea.
I'm still dealing with a lot of trauma from my childhood. I was bullied in school, and many people pretended to be nice to me or be my friend only to learn things they could use to embarrass me, which they'd then spread to the rest of the school. I got fake-asked-out several times by different guys. I was deliberately excluded from groups in which I had friends, because there were people who didn't like me and didn't want me around them. I have a deep fear of abandonment, and struggle with trusting people. I'm working on all of this, and I've gotten a little better with trust, but my abandonment issues continue to be an exposed nerve these days. I'm hoping that restarting therapy will help with both of these.My biggest ask is that people communicate with me when I've done something wrong. I respect people needing to block others for their own comfort, truly. I understand that. And I know some people would rather do that without talking to me first, and I have no choice but to respect that. But if I could please ask that people talk to me, give me a chance to explain myself or a chance to understand that I've messed up or done something wrong, before I'm completely removed from a friend's life, I'd be very grateful. Even if I'm still blocked or removed in the end. I'd just like a chance to apologize and understand.Thank you.